IM noT OKAyyyyy!!!

I feel insecure . I feel that something is wrong somewhere . I just dont know what . If only I knew . Why is that I have this heavy feeling in my heart ? So many bad stuff has happened eversince 2010 started . My friends have came and gone . Some of them stay just for the sake of it . I had to break hearts this year . So many mistakes I have done .I just hate my attitude . I have mad so many people angry . I make people hate me . I want to change but there are some stuff I just cant change . Its like having all the darts aiming at you at the same time . I wish I could change some stuff . But its all in God’s hands right ? Always have , Always will . Right now , My heart is racing . But Im sitting down .
Im nervous!
Im scared!
Im insecure!

here is a story of a lonely girl, living in a lonely world
a hidden crush,secret note
i am checking u out
but u don't even know my name???
ur to busy playing mind games!!?
what will it take?
If i cut my hair
change my clothes
Will u notice me?
If i bite my lip
say hello
will u notice me?
whats it gonna take to notice me???!!!!!!

-THE END- (wats wrong wif me!! T_T hWaaa~)